I am an individual with feelings. Someone who is very sensitive. I have faith in everyone until you burn me. I believe in everything until it proves me wrong. I am independent yet rely way too much on men. Dealing with the idea of getting married and living the all american dream can be a bit confusing at times. I have witnessed too many divorces and left behind children to jump right into that scene. Learning to let go and deal with change is something I still have not accomplished. If I am comfortable it is hard for me to give that up.
I can't stand to not have control over things. Mainly just life in general. Most other things I let everyone else handle because I don't want to be the one to blame. At least with my life I know I am to blame.
I totally believe in family and friends. mine have made me who I am and some have even changed me into what I don't want to be. But there again you have change and some traits have just been changed way to long to change back(understand that?)
For my youth I lived basically as white trash yet humble so. Raised with great ethics and beleifs and my father and stepmother let us be what we wanted to be. Yet during these times I found it hard to be accepted by those I wanted to be so badly. Once moved in with my mother and stepfather in a whole new town, I received the spoiled treatment. I lived as a community kid(you know, those whose parents are outstanding citizens. SUPPOSEDLY)receiving attention from the highest classes of kids my age. Wow what a change. But I slipped into bitch mode. I have since recovered and have positive qualities from both lifestyles. Being on your own can revert you to the attitude you had when you were poor very fast.
I have never been perfect nor will I ever be. Do not judge me based on my entries. Do not take advantage of my entries. And if you know me please keep my entries amongst yourself. If you ever question any of my entries please feel free to comment on them I will reply. Most importantly I love meeting new people, let me get to know you if you want to get to know me.
But anyways this is enough for now I suppose if ya need to know anything else just ask.
By the way, __graphixbylisa made my journal layout.